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03 November 2009 @ 10:08 pm
so i was told today that i was a little bit of a negative person, it got rubbed off on me.
i'll try not to take it personally, although i feel it's true. i've kind of been feeling that way lately too. anyways, i'll try to be better. promise!

today, ben also invited me to thanksgiving dinner with his family. his mom, howard, brother, grandma, and howard's mother. i really want to go, but i'm also veryyyyyyyyyy nervous. i also wanted to work black fridayy.
 
 
i wholeheartedly believe that, "Everything happens for a Reason"
 
 
03 October 2009 @ 11:04 pm
i've been re-evaluating my life lately. i guess i feel like i've been in a rut, as of lately, and i have only been back for a month or so. i've also met a few new people.

on another note, i'm going to start being more cautious with who i speak with. and with what i say.

some people you can trust with your life, some people lie through their teeth.
 
 
25 September 2009 @ 10:41 pm
i'm moving up.
at least it feels like it.

life is good, at least decent.
i feel that i'm too cautious, but i'm gonna let loose a little.

i'm going to start being less afraid of things.
 
 
01 September 2009 @ 09:12 am
I haven't updated in a while, so i thought i'd do it now.

everything is actually going well, spending most of my time working.
most of the rest with benjamin, and the rest with friends split with sleep.

my life isn't so very exciting, but right now i am content with where i am in life.

i still have my 5 year plan, and hopefully in a few years me and alex and our boyfriends can get it together. if not me and alexandra decided that we still have each other <3

i can't remember exact events that have happened recently, so i won't go into details with that
BUT, i did have lunch with ben's mom and her boyfriend this past sunday.
It was really, really nice. I am falling for him more and more everyday.



 
 
24 July 2009 @ 10:40 pm
-incubus (less than a month)
-my one year anniversary with benjamin (less than a month)
-my birthday

for my birthday this year, i want to do what i didn't do last year. i want to spend it with my boyfriend, and have a night out on the town with the girls. i also way to spend it with my family, because i'm actually going to be around them. i feel like this birthday means more to me than all the other ones, because life is really starting for me now. everything is starting to come together, and i'm so grateful for it.

so i know that it's still about a month away, but i'm already thinking about a few things to do, and i am getting really, really excited.
 
 
24 July 2009 @ 12:55 am
Where is your boyfriend/girlfriend at the moment?
in the hospital, recovering from appendix surgery

What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?
pepsi

Did your last kiss mean anything?
of course.

Do you like tattoos and piercings?
yesss. and i plan i getting a few more. fingers crossed.

Are you in a good mood?
could be better.

Do you want to have kids?
eh. (in the words of my eloquent sister)

Miss someone?
benjamin

Do you believe in true love?
yes

Do you like to wear sweatpants?
sometimes

Are you wearing them right now?
nope

Have you ever stolen a sign from a street?
nope

Are you playing hard to get right now?
lol. no, i've been got.

Do you miss your past?
the past is the past for a reason.

When did you last hold hands with someone?
june 4th

Would you ever want to swim with the sharks?
never.

Are you dating anyone right now?
yess.

Has someone smacked your butt in the past week?
no

Did you speak to your father today?
yes, thru my sis.

When was the last time you cleaned your room?
lol

Have you lost friends in the past year?
as we grow older, sometimes it's harder to make time for people.......

If you could change your eye color what would it be?
green/hazel

When was the last time you hugged someone?
can't honestly remember.

Who was the last person that made you laugh?
not sure. but probably benjamin

Do you dance in the car?
no.

What is your favorite color(s)?
green and black

How is your hair?
short

What is the last thing you said aloud?
yawn.

Has your mom bought anything in the past 24 hours?
not sure

What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
my boyfrienddddd.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
not really

Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
nope

Do you hate the last boy you were talking to?
nope

 
 
i contradict myself, ALL the time. it's just that nobody notices.
 
 
19 July 2009 @ 01:12 am
if i could be with you everyday of my life, i probably would.
 
 
10 July 2009 @ 01:13 am
Oh no, this couldn't be more unexpected
And I can tell I've been moving in so slow
Don't let it throw you off too far
Cause I'll be running right behind you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oohhh, when I'm around you I'm predictable
Cause I believe in loving you at first sight
I know it's crazy but I'm hoping to..
To take a hold of you

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Oh you're everything I'm wanting
Come to think of it, I'm aching
On account of my transgression..
Will you welcome this confession?

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously

Could this be out of line? (Could this be out of line?)
To say you're the only one breaking me down like this
You're the only one I would take a shot on
Keep me hanging on so contagiously
 
 
07 July 2009 @ 01:02 am
you never know.
 
 
02 July 2009 @ 09:52 pm
paula steinberg
 
 
01 July 2009 @ 01:11 am
I've been driving with the rear view mirror.
Who guessed it would be no clearer?
It got me lost, and now I'm late.
The clock's dead on, no one to blame but me.

Is this a bad chase dream where speed's not what it seems?
The pedal's pressed, but nothing works.
Bite your nails 'til your fingers hurt.

What now? What now boy?
What now? Who you are is not enough.

It's hard to know where we should go
When home's too far away and "here" is a hollow place
Where people come to softly hum
The songs that scare you most, believe me I'm scared enough

Bite down, 'cause everyone's looking.
Wouldn't this be the perfect bookend?
Little boy was scared at first.
Brazen once, but now he's gone astray

What now boy?

It's hard to know where we should go
When home's too far away and "here" is a hollow place
Where people come to softly hum
The songs that scare you most, believe me I'm scared enough

i told you it was my favorite song.
 
 
28 June 2009 @ 08:48 pm
Why aren't you with the person you were first in love with?
actually, i am.

What’s the best feeling in the world?
being happy.

What's something you really want right now, be honest?
to stop being frustrated

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
not at this moment

In school, how was/is your attendance record?
too good.

Do you want someone dead?
nope.

What did you do for your last birthday?
went to cauley square and then dinner with the girls

Whats a random fact about the last male who had their arm/arms around you?
he's the best kisser ever.

Can you remember the last time you really liked someone?
hard to forget

Where were you at 11:47 pm last night?
home.

Did you hug or kiss anyone today?
no

Do you think you are a good person?
yes

Who was the last person that helped you stop crying?
my boyfriend

Have you ever spoken to someone on the phone while in the shower?
lol, no.

Where did you get the jeans that you're wearing?
wearing sweat pants.

Are your parents still together?
yes, and very happily. thankyou.

Have you held hands with anyone in the past 24 hours?
no

What is something you've realized recently?
i'm not getting any younger. i need to think about the future.

Where do you see yourself in the next 2 years?
not sure yet.

Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
yes, more than one.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
benjamin scott stone

What is your mood?
blah

Is it okay if you kiss people when you're single?
yes.

What are/were you doing at twelve this afternoon?
taking a walk

How many times have you dyed your hair?
a few

Do you personally know anyone who's in a band?
yes

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
always

Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden?
no

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
yes, i am a big believer in that.

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf?
no.

Are you wearing any clothes that don’t belong to you?
nope

Can you play pool?
yes, but not very well.

Your best friend tells you, you have a drug problem, you say?
lol, you must have the wrong friend.

You receive $50 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
food.

Which friend are you most likely to share a secret with?
alexandra

Have you ever seen either one of your parents cry?
yes, both of them.

Who in your family do you act like the most?
mom and dad

Shopping: best with friends, parents, bf/gf, or alone?
depends on my mood, usually alone.

Who was the last person you talked to in person before bed last night?
someone from work.

Are your parents over the age of 40?
yep

Have you ever touched a dead body?
no.

Where did you get your last bruise from?
running into something, i'm somewhat of a klutz.

Do you have curly hair?
not at all. i wish i did.

Who means the most to you in your life right now?
my family, my friends, my boyfriend

Do you fall for guys/girls easily?
not usually

How do you feel about your hair right now?
grow, grow, grow

If I ask, "are you okay?" what would you say?
i would yes. i am.
 
 
19 June 2009 @ 07:28 pm
amen  
You can't control what other people do. But you can control how you respond to it, whether you allow it to eat you up and occupy all your thoughts, and how much you let it affect you.
 
 
16 June 2009 @ 12:19 am
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but, i will try to do the best that i can with what i have.

so far everyone has been really nice, but my living arrangement isn't exactly what i thought it was. i'm not exactly a big fan of on campus housing, and especially since this place is so old.

i'm not sure if this is really what i wanted. hopefully the job is what i wanted.

maybe i am just being picky, but i hate to be promised one thing and then given another, but everyone has been soooo nice, so i feel that it's not something that they do maliciously.
 
 
01 May 2009 @ 08:03 pm
with college!
 
 
THREE NAMES I GO BY:
amy
amy-ska-do
amysaurus


THREE JOBS I'VE HELD IN MY LIFE:
muvico
starbucks
aramark

THREE PLACES I HAVE LIVED:
new york city
orlando
your mom's house


THREE TV SHOWS THAT I WATCH:
sex & the city
house
law & order: svu


THREE PLACES I HAVE BEEN:
kuala lumpur, malaysia
los angeles, california
atlantic city, new jersey


THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO:
israel
the whole continent of europe
india


THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS:
fresh baked bread
anything made from a potato
anything my mommy makes


THREE FAVORITE BOOKS:
the giver
the alchemist
anything by michael critchton


THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO:
GRADUATION
going to the places i want to go to
being happy


THREE PETS THAT YOU HAVE OWNED:
goldfishes, none of them survived.


THREE FAVORITE BANDS/ ARTISTS:
incubus
jason mraz (thanks, al & tony)
sublime


THREE BEST DAYS EVER:
first kiss with benjamin
days spent with the ones i love
&&& TBD


THREE FAVORITE PASTIMES:
reading
taking walks
hanging out with my favorite peoples
 
 
Current Location: your mom's house
Current Music: keyboard clacking
 
 
26 April 2009 @ 10:06 pm
13 days.